Friday, May 29, 2009

Good News/Bad News

IN THE NEWS: "Conn. woman bitten after 'bite me' remark." Read more HERE.


Yay! It's Friday! And what's better than having a whole Friday to write? A whole Friday to READ, of course! And I just got my recent Amazon order. :)

I'm really excited! (Can you tell?)

In fact, here's what I ordered:

She's All That--by Kristin Billerbeck. (Christian chick-lit) She's a new author to me. I just felt like trying someone new. The book looks really cute!

and

Save the Date by Tamara Summers (YA) Another new author for me. I wanted something fun and lighthearted.

Let's see... Not counting these two new books, I have 2 print books and 2 e-books books still in my TBR pile. Personally, I think that's a pretty manageable pile (especially heading into summer).

(PS. That was the rationalization to myself for buying more books.)

That's the GOOD NEWS.


Now the BAD NEWS:

I also got my Mango Pitter delivered to me with that order. That should be good news, right? Well...I think I might have developed an allergy to mangoes. Nooooooooo!

(PS. This is really bad news because I really love mangoes)



Anyhew, I'm off to write or plot (haven't decided). Then read.

If you have time this weekend...or NOW check out this link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykQARC6xnqc&feature=related


Author Diana Palmer talks about being published. It's a really an interesting video.

Have a great weekend!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Plotting 101

MENTAL STATUS: "Semi-concerned". Face is looking blotchy and I don't know why.

I have my own way of writing a romance. I can't complain. It's worked well for me so far.

BUT (and that's a big "but")

I have an idea for a book that is not a romance, and I don't know know what to do with it. I mean, I have REALLY been at a standstill with it. It's been driving me crazy!
Part of the problem with it is that I have no actual plot. Just an idea. Therefore my normal way of writing isn't quite cutting it.

Fortunately, one of my critique partners--who is an awesome plotter-- is giving a class on plotting (Plotting 101) for all of us in the group. I've tried one of her gathering info methods last night, and I already feel like something is finally connecting. FINALLY!

I'm hoping I can find a few more of her tips helpful too. Then, I can incorporate them into my writing method and make it my own.

I'm not looking to completely overhaul how I work, but I did feel it was time to stretch my writing muscles a bit and approach this story a little differently.

Have you ever felt like you needed to change how you normally plot your book?

Or has what you're currently doing always worked for every new story?

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Hey, YA Paranormal Writers!



Writing Paranormal Young Adult Fiction with Some of The Hottest Authors in the Genre

May 28th-30th at Romance Divas


Featuring:

Rachel Caine

Cassandra Clare

Lucienne Diver

Christopher Golden

Jeff Mariotte

Alyson Noel

Rosemary Clement-Moore



This workshop will take place at the Romance Diva Forum. All are welcome. To get access to the forum you will need to register.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Summer Movie Buzz

IN THE NEWS: NY toddler is a cue-ball wizard at pool table. Read more HERE.

I had a fantastic weekend! Why? FOUR parties in four days of course!

Nuff said. :)

(I've completely blown my diet, but I'm back in the saddle today.)

Anyhew, last night the hubby and I decided to watch some TV and we caught the movie: The Taking of Pelham 123. It was really intense. But I was interested in watching it because the remake (which I want to see) is coming out this summer with John Travolta and Denzel Washington. Should be really good!

And I REALLY want to take the kiddo to the see the new Disney movie: Up.
Oh, my goodness, the trailer totally cracks me up! I think I want to see it more than my daughter. How sad is that?

Other than those two, I didn't see anything else that piqued my interest out of all the movies coming out. Maybe Land of the Lost. But I'm on the fence. The previews haven't sold me.

How about you? Are you looking forward to seeing any movies this summer?

Monday, May 25, 2009

Memorial Day

MENTAL STATUS: "Amused". Been laughing and enjoying my time with friends and family this weekend. (One more family get-together tonight!)


Have a safe Memorial Day holiday!

Friday, May 22, 2009

Avocado Salsa!

IN THE NEWS: Police: Pittsburgh student used snake as jump rope. Read more HERE.


I'm one of those people who mangle perfectly good unsuspecting food magazines when I get excited over a recipe. I rip recipes out and immediately stash them like a squirrel with nuts into my recipe file. (Yes, I have a recipe file. Many recipe files, actually. Color coded, too)

Last weekend the hubby informed me that we were having last minute guests over. Eeep. In my frenzy to be a good hostess, I quickly checked my recipe file, saw I had all the ingredients for a certain appetizer, and immediately got to work.

That's how I found this little treasure: Avocado Salsa.
It's from my June 2008 of Cooking Light. And oh man, is it ever good. Actually, good is too tame a word.

It's excellente!
(Unless you happen to be allergic to avocados. In which case, you have my undying sympathy)

Here's the recipe anyway:

Avocado Salsa

2 cups finely chopped onion (I used red onion)
3/4 c finely chopped red bell pepper
3 TBsp olive oil
3 TBsp white wine vinegar
1 tsp Dijon mustard
3/4 tsp salt
1/4 tsp pepper
1 large garlic clove, minced
2 avocados, peeled and chopped
1 1/2 cups chopped seeded plum tomatoes
2 TBsp chopped fresh cilantro
1/4 tsp pepper sauce

Combine first 9 ingredients in large bowl. Toss gently. Cover and refrigerate 3 hours. Stir in avocado and rest of ingredients just before serving.
* I served it with blue corn chips

I'm making it again for Memorial Day. It's just THAT good.

Have a great weekend!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Parents Be Warned...

MENTAL STATUS: "Pleased". I've been making some really great writing progress--partially due to the fact that I'm trapped in the house while my handyman is making me an extra closet in my bedroom. :)

See the picture below? Yeah, well, it's a "Girl Gourmet Cupcake Maker". But don't let the cute little pink and green cupcake on top fool you!

It's an evil device.

Pure. Evil.


My daughter got it from one of her friends as a birthday present. It looked harmless enough to me. But how wrong I was...

First off, it's not as "simple" as it looks. It's a lot of work and a lot of mess for one measly cupcake. I could buy a Betty Crocker cake mix and end up with 24 cupcakes with greater ease.

And even if you follow the directions perfectly on this "toy", the cupcake will come out either too dry or too wet. We made one the other day and apparently we added too much water to the frosting because it shot out everywhere--AKA on ME.

And the taste! Ugh! It was so awful I had to double check the expiration date.
Honestly, if my daughter did not enjoy using this thing so much, it would have been torched a long time ago. In fact, I don't know how this thing did it, but it has actually managed to surpass MOON SAND on my mental toys-I'd-love-to-kick-to-the-curb-without-my-daughter-noticing list.

If only that were possible.
**sigh**

Fortunately, there's not much cupcake mix left. :)

Pssst. Do you have kids? If so, do you despise any of their toys?

It's okay. I won't tell.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

WIP #8

IN THE NEWS: "Man calls 911 over 28-year-old son's messy bedroom." Read more HERE.

I manged to squeak out another scene and finish my chapter nine. Whew! It's bloody awful--TRULY--but the chapter is done. So that's something, anyway.

Well, not just something. FOUR percent, if you want to get technical. :) But I'll take it.




37000 / 50000 words. 74% done!

Yay, me!


The best part about today--besides boasting about 4%--is that I have the morning to write some more. YAY, me, again!!

So I'm going to go through this bloody awful chapter and see if I can bandage it up to make it somewhat readable. I'd also like to start my chapter ten or at least think about what I'm going to present in it.

I have to confess, lately it's been slow going and an absolute bear to get through these last chapters. Not sure why. Maybe because my characters are finally together and soon I know I'll be ripping them (and their hearts) apart.
It will be such a tense time in my character's life and thus, my life as well, I suppose.

Thank goodness there's a happy ending to look forward to. :)

So go ahead. Make me jealous. What was your writing progress this past week?

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Looking Forward to a Ding Dong

MENTAL STATUS: "Psyched!" Getting the popcorn ready. :)




I am SO ready for American Idol tonight!

I have to say I am a little disappointed Danny didn't make the final two. Okay, shocked is probably a better description, but in the words of Simon, I still think it will be a real ding dong of a show!

I'm going to try to get as much writing, cooking, and laundry folded as I can today so I can totally relax and watch the show tonight. Just before blogging, I grabbed my "To Do" list and was about to jot some notes down when I spotted this:

My kiddo's "To Do" list.



1) Kiss Mom, 2) Hug Mom, 3) Feed Fish.

Isn't she precious?

Obviously she's a busy girl and doesn't want to forget the important stuff: adoration for her mother and keeping her pets alive.

She's a smart kid. :)

Monday, May 18, 2009

Gadget GaGa

IN THE NEWS: Deputies: Banana used as gun in holdup, then eaten. Read more HERE.

I love gadgets.

In fact, my neighbor has one that I really, well, covet. :) You see, I eat a lot of mangoes. (I put them in my spinach smoothies.) But they're a pain in the neck to peel and cut. (The mangoes) So she told me about this:

It's The Mango Pitter. (I've ordered one for myself this morning!)

Now I want the Topsy Turvy tomato grower. Have you seen this on TV?! I love fresh tomatoes! I've been throwing some hints to my hubby. But he seems unimpressed.

You know what else looks good? The iSlice slicer. Now THAT looks like something really handy, especially on Christmas when you have to open that impossible Fort-Knox-tight packaging on your children's toys. Standing in line at AC MOORE the other day, I was tempted to buy one. I resisted.
Regretfully.

Surprisingly enough, with my fascination with home gadgets, I don't own any writing gadgets. Nope. Not one.

Writer's Block looks neat! It's software that's suppose to help you pull together your ideas, notes, and research for your writing.
Or for those with the "complex" story lines, which need help getting mapped out, they have CMAP.

Both sound really interesting! Maybe one these days... (after I order the Topsy Turvy)

I do have an Alpha Smart, though.

*yawn*

Yeah, I suppose that's not really a cool writing gadget. But it does help when I need to write on the go.

Do you own any writing gadgets? Do you have any on your wish list?

Friday, May 15, 2009

A Little Friendly Book Support

MENTAL STATUS: "Thrilled". Lost a few pounds and bought a new dress.

My friend and fellow author, C.D. Yates has a new release out today from Blade Publishing!

Dog-Gone But Not Forgotten

She's one heck of a writer and--dare I say?--a hundred times funnier than I am.

Check it out!

One man. One woman. One dog. And one dearly beloved but not-quite-yet-departed matchmaking grandmother who’s dog-gone, but not forgotten…



**NOTE**

Proceeds go to It’s Meow or Never Animal Rescue and Sanctuary, a non-profit organization dedicated to animals of all sorts.
Actor/Model Michael Elan, co-founder of It’s Meow or Never, plays the hero, Jack Radigan, on the cover of Dog-Gone.

It's a double whammy. Buy an e-book and not only save a tree but save an animal, too. :)

Congrats, C.D!!

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Black Bean Burgers!

IN THE NEWS: "Rotten office fridge cleanup sends 7 to hospital" Read more HERE.


I'm not a vegetarian but I could easily be one. EASILY!! If only it wasn't for my meat-loving family bringing me down, that is.

I guess I've been pushing my luck recently with all my veggie meals, because my hubby told me that although he liked this recipe for black bean burgers I made, he was feeling crotchety since this was the second meatless dinner I served him in the past two days.

Ooops.


Anyhew, I thought this recipe I tried was VERY tasty. And the "burgers" really held together nicely, like a real hamburger. Of course, I served it with sweet potato fries to really send my family over the edge. LOL!



Black Bean Burgers

2 cups black beans, drained and rinsed
1 1/2 cups cooked wild rice (I used basmati since I LOVE basmati rice and it's what I had on hand)
1/8 c walnuts (OMITTED since the kiddo is allergic)
1/4 c roasted red pepper
1 med onion (I used 1/2 med red onion)
1 bunch cilantro
3 TBsp chopped basil
2 TBsp FRESH lemon juice
5 cloves garlic, roasted (I sauteed them with the onions for a little bit)
1 TBsp cumin
1 TBsp paprika
1 TBsp olive oil
salt and pepper to taste



Combine all in a food processor and coarsely chop. Shape mixture into patties. Heat olive oil in skillet over high heat. Brown patties on both sides (2 to 3 min). Serve on bun with fixings.

Yum!
Better than a real burger.
(For me, anyway) :)

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

WIP #7

MENTAL STATUS: "Excited". Going on a field trip with the kiddo's class today! Woo-hoo!

Oooh, good progress to report this week!

That little purple bar has inched its way out of the 60% zone and has reached 70%. FINALLY!

Wow...would ya look at me being all productive and whatnot with my writing. :)







35002 / 50000 words. 70% done!

70%! Have you ever seen a more glorious percent number? I mean besides 80. Besides 90, too.

Well, yeah, 100 is the best, but that's a gimme, so that one doesn't count.

Anyhew, no writing will get done today, but I'm setting another writing goal for Thursday. Hopefully, I'll hit it.

How was your progress?

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Bamboozled!


IN THE NEWS: Naked woman goes to Fla. home, asks for cigarettes. Read more HERE.

We have hermit crabs and are now the proud owners of... fish.
Yes. Two cute ones named "Fudge" (he's brown) and "Goldilocks" (guess what color he is?). Anyhew, I was sold this fairly large aquarium with filter and bling on the pretense that "fish are easy to take care of".

Oh yeah? Well, I think I got a defective fish.

Fudge got stuck in the fake trees that are in the tank. Twice. Then, two days later my hubby sees Fudge under the filter--trapped. The poor thing somehow got his fins stuck in the vent. So we had to unplug the filter so he could get out.

I'm worried that this fish is going to get himself into trouble again, which leaves me checking on him several times a day! (He got caught in the branches again this morning)

I'm beginning to think there's a problem with him AND that I would have been better off getting a hamster like my kiddo originally wanted.

*sigh*

Do you have any pets?

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mother's Day Continued

MENTAL STATUS: "Happy". Had a really nice weekend.

My Mother's Day was so good that I've decided to extend it.

How?

By taking the day off and getting my hair cut and highlighted and then going for French pedicure. I might even go shopping afterwards. And have ice cream for lunch! Okay, low fat frozen yogurt. But I'm putting chocolate chips on it.

I'm such a rebel.


Did you have a nice Mother's Day, too?

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day!


In case you can't read my daughter's caption, it says, "The Earth is for everyone but really for my mommy".
Yeah, that's right.
Sorry, everyone. Go get your own earth for Mother's Day. :)
Have a blessed day!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Playing Dress-Up

IN THE NEWS: "Cow gets new home after escape from slaughterhouse". Read more here.

I confess. I’m a dialogue writer. I LOVE to write dialogue! LOVE IT! In fact, I spend most of my time with my dialogue. (As I did yesterday)

I'm not talking about spending time with plain dialogue, but spending time dressing up dialogue.

Why dress up dialogue?

Let’s say you made this fantastic dress. It looks really good on you, too. Got that visual? Good. Now, would you head out the door in just that dress?
Please say no. Please say no. Please say no.

No? Good answer! No, you wouldn’t just head out the door in a dress, because you need shoes. Cute shoes. Something strappy with a wedge heel. And you also need a purse. And earrings! Maybe a necklace. And if you’re anything like me, you’re going to need some Spanx, too. But I digress...

Anyhew, you see all this stuff you need with your dress to make yourself look nice?

Okay. Now, consider your dialogue as your dress. If you accessorize it, you can make it look and sound prettier. How do you accessorize? By adding action beats, dialogue tags, and sometimes even adding an internal point of view to dialogue.

Not every writer takes advantage of dressing up dialogue to give a character personality. And that’s fine. To each his own.

But...if your characters are reading flat, this could be an area you tinker with. :)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Here’s a section of dialogue from my book completely stripped of the bling.

Big Bens, why don’t you lead us in circle time?
“Uh…circle what?”
“Circle time. It’s great fun. You sit in a circle and sing songs.”
“Uh…maybe I should just continue to observe today.”
“Oh. Well, okay. Maybe tomorrow?”
“Sure.”


Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Were you able to get the personality of the people talking? Were you able to understand what was unspoken in those words?

Well, here it is again, all dressed up and ready for the prom:

Big Bens, why don’t you lead us in circle time? Missy asked.
Her words jolted him back to the present, and he squinted as if that would improve his hearing. “Uh…circle what?”
“Circle time.” She giggled. “It’s great fun. You sit in a circle and sing songs.”
Oh, yes. That sounds like great fun. A real hoot. Thanks so much for including me. Who did she think he was, Mr. Rogers? “Uh…maybe I should just continue to observe today.”
Missy’s mouth formed a little bow. “Oh. Well, okay. Maybe tomorrow?”
No freakin’ way, sister. “Sure,” he said pleasantly.

He was calling his agent as soon as he got back to his apartment. Denise hadn't mentioned anything about belting out "Old MacDonald" for this gig.

Oh dear. Ben doesn’t have a good attitude about being in a preschool class. (Although he's trying to hide it.) But the dialogue alone isn’t enough to convey that. Showing his confusion to Missy’s question by him squinting added to the scene, also. He’s out of his element and he’s reacting to it--first in action and then in thought.

Sometimes it’s the little things that add to the bigger picture.

Of course, there is always a risk of over dressing. (Guilty) But that's another topic all together.

Do you enjoy spending time dressing up your dialogue?

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Spinach Parmesan Orzo

MENTAL STATUS: "Nervous". Dentist appointment today. Bleh.

This recipe is for my friend, Kate--who was interested enough to ask for it. It's so simple and makes a great side dish with grilled fish. :)

Spinach-Parmesan Orzo

8 oz orzo pasta
3 oz fresh baby spinach
1 & 1/2 tsp minced garlic
1/4 c fresh Parmesan cheese
salt & pepper

Cook pasta according to directions. Drain and toss in spinach and garlic. Stir well. Cover and let sit for about 4 minutes, stirring once or twice until spinach is slightly wilted. Add 1/2 tsp salt and 1/2 tsp fresh pepper. Just before serving, stir in cheese. (4 servings)

Yum!

Prayer: America's Hope

Today is The National Day of Prayer.

Please remember to pray for our government, our military, our media, our education, our businesses, our churches, and our families.

"If we ever forget that we are One Nation Under God, then we will be a nation gone under."
****President Ronald Reagan

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

10 Dumb Things Smart Christians Believe by Larry Osborne


It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review!


Again? Sorry. Usually the tours aren't this close together. :)


You never know when I might play a wild card on you!



Today's Wild Card author is:






and the book:




10 Dumb Things Smart Christians Believe


Multnomah Books (April 14, 2009)




ABOUT THE AUTHOR:



Larry Osborne is senior pastor of the multi-campus, 7,000-member North Coast Church in Vista, California, recognized as one of the ten most influential churches in America. A pioneer in the sermon-based small group movement, Larry also founded the North Coast Training Network and is a highly sought-after consultant for business and ministry leaders worldwide. A frequent contributor to Leadership Journal, Larry’s books on genuine spirituality and leadership are designed to reach a wide audience. He lives in Vista with his wife and family.

Visit the author's website.

Product Details:

List Price: $13.99
Paperback: 224 pages
Publisher: Multnomah Books (April 14, 2009)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1601421508
ISBN-13: 978-1601421500

MY REVIEW: This book is a very easy read--one, because it's fairly short and two, because the author has a very down-to-earth quality in his writing, almost as if he were there having a frank conversation with you.
Some of the beliefs--or spiritual urban legends-- he discusses and weighs against scripture are "everything happens for a reason", "Christians shouldn't judge", "faith can fix anything", and a "Godly home guarantees Godly kids". I think what the author has to say is very interesting and in some cases extremely eye-opening. This would make a fantastic book to discuss in a group Bible study.

AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:




FA I T H

CAN FIX

ANYTHING


I’ll never forget the day my wife and I stopped by the local hospital for what we knew would be our last visit with her friend Susan.

For three years, Susan had put up a valiant fight against a disease that was now in its last stages. Her labored breathing, gaunt figure, and deep-set eyes made it painfully obvious that she would not be around much longer.

As we sat by her bed, wondering what to say and how to pray, I was stumped. (I’m a pastor and I’m supposed to know what to say in these situations.) But before I could say anything profound—or even trite—our awkward silence was broken by the entrance of Susan’s husband, John, into the room.

We exchanged hugs and a quick greeting. Then John began to talk. He spoke of the plans he and Susan had for the future. Not in a regretful reflection of what could have been, but with a powerful conviction of what was yet to be.

It was weird.

Susan lay there barely cognizant, struggling for each breath, seemingly hours from death. Yet her husband stood inches away talking about future vacations, a kitchen remodel, and their retirement years as if the four of us were hanging out at a backyard barbeque.

While John and Susan had often spoken of their confidence in God’s ability to heal, this was different. He wasn’t talking about an assurance that she could be healed. He was describing his absolute certainty that she would be healed. He didn’t have an ounce of doubt. It was already a done deal.

Then he told us what had happened. That morning, while in prayer for Susan’s healing, he’d been overcome with a powerful sense of God’s presence and a deep conviction that God had answered his prayer. As he continued to pray, biblical passages proclaiming God’s protection and care flooded his mind. He felt as if God had physically reached down and touched him, whispering in his ear, “I’ve heard you. She’ll be okay.”

Brimming with confidence, he figured he’d arrived at the epitome of faith because he had absolute assurance of what he hoped for and complete certainty of what he had not yet seen.1He was as giddy as a prospector who’d just tapped into the mother lode.

I didn’t know what to say. Could it be that God was up to something big? Were we about to witness a miracle? Was John’s faith going to pull her back from the jaws of death?

I wasn’t so sure.

He was absolutely certain.

That night she breathed her last breath.

John was devastated. For years after Susan’s death, he limped along spiritually, disillusioned with God, prayer, and the impotence of faith.

But his spiritual meltdown had nothing to do with God letting him down. It had nothing to do with the promises of the Bible being hollow. It was the predictable result of having placed his trust in the fool’s gold of faith’s best known and most widely believed spiritual urban legend: the myth that if we have enough faith, we can do or fix anything.

Unfortunately, John’s concept of faith (what it was and how it worked) didn’t come from the Word of God; it came from the word on the street. He had banked on a set of assumptions and beliefs that simply weren’t true. And they had let him down.


The Word on the Street


The word on the street is that faith is a potent mixture of intellectual and emotional self-control that when properly harnessed can literally change outcomes through positive thinking and clear visualization.

It’s what successful people tout as the key to their achievements, survivors of great tragedies cite as the source of their endurance, televangelists credit with healing power, and motivational speakers make a sweet living espousing.

It’s why, when our team is five runs down with two outs in the ninth inning, we’re not supposed to think negatively. Instead, we’re supposed to hang tough, visualize a big inning. Because as long as we really believe we can win, there is a good chance we will.

This kind of hopeful thinking is more about

faith in faith than faith in God. Yet it’s what

many of us have been taught to believe God

wants from us when we’re confronted with

insurmountable odds.

Same with a medical crisis. Did the tests come back showing the cancer has metastasized? Don’t panic. It can be beat. Just think positively.

Or perhaps your son is a five-foot, two-inch freshman with dreams of playing in the NBA. Whatever you do, don’t discourage him. Who knows? It could happen. After all, nothing is impossible as long as he pursues his dreams with hard work and unwavering faith.

Unfortunately, this kind of hopeful thinking has nothing in common with what the Bible calls faith. It’s more about faith in faith than faith in God. Yet it’s what many of us have been taught to believe God wants from us when we’re confronted with insurmountable odds.

We’ve been told that for those who can muster it up, an all doubts-removed, count-it-as-done faith has the power to fix anything. It’s God’s great cure-all, a magic potion.

In fact, in some Christian circles, this kind of faith is said to have the power to actually manipulate the hand of God. I recently heard a TV preacher claim that God has to answer prayers of unwavering faith no matter what we ask for. As long as we have no doubt, he has no choice. It’s a law of the universe. Apparently it even trumps God’s sovereignty.

Though I’d hate to be the one to tell him so.


How the English Language Mucks Things Up


While faith is a concept deeply rooted in the Christian Scriptures, most of our modern ideas about it aren’t. Much of the blame can be placed on the way the original manuscripts of the New Testament have been translated into English.

It’s not that the translators are unskilled or deceptive. It’s simply that translating anything from one language to another is a difficult task, burdened by all the ancillary meanings and uses found in one language but not another.

A quick comparison of how we use the words faith, belief, and trust in modern-day English with how they were originally used in the Greek language of the New Testament can be eye opening. Let’s take a look to see what I mean.


Faith

For most of us, the word faith conjures up an image of confidence. It’s the opposite of fear and doubt. It’s often defined by our feelings as much as by anything else. That’s why most teaching on faith tends to focus on eradicating all fear, doubt, and negative thoughts. It’s also why “You gotta have faith” has come to mean “Think positively.”


Belief

On the other hand, the word belief usually conjures up an image of intellectual assent. We say we believe in something as long as we think that it’s probably true. And since our beliefs are thought to exist primarily between our ears, we’re not particularly puzzled when people claim to believe in something—say UFOs, Bigfoot, Darwinian evolution, creationism, even Jesus—but live as if they don’t. For most of us, beliefs are intellectual. Acting upon them is optional.

You can see this definition of belief in the way many of us approach evangelism. We tell the Jesus story to people and then ask them if they believe it. Those who say yes are immediately assured that they’re headed for heaven. After all, they’re “believers.” It doesn’t seem to matter that the Bible adds quite a few qualifiers beyond mere mental assent.2


Trust

In contrast to our use of faith and belief, when we use the word trust it almost always carries an assumption that there will be some sort of corresponding action. If we trust a person, it’s supposed to show up in our response. For instance, if the parent of a teenage girl says, “I trust you,” but won’t let her out of the house, we’d think that parent was speaking nonsense. There’s no question the daughter would.


Clearly, each of these three words carries a distinctly different meaning in the English language. But to the surprise of most Christians, almost every time we find one of these three words in our English New Testaments, each is a translation of the exact same Greek root word.3

That means that the Bible knows nothing of the sharp distinctions we make between faith, belief, and trust. Biblically, they not only overlap, but they are practically synonymous. To the writers of Scripture, our modern distinctions between faith, belief, and trust would seem quite strange and forced.


So, What Kind of Faith Does God Want?


The kind of faith the Bible advocates and God wants from us has far more to do with our actions than our feelings. In fact, biblical faith is so closely tied to actions of obedience that the Bible ridicules the very idea of someone claiming to have faith without acting upon it.4

God doesn’t care if we’ve mastered the art of positive thinking. He’s not impressed by the mental gymnastics of visualization. He doesn’t even insist that we eradicate all doubts and fears. In fact, more than once, he’s answered the prayers of people whose “faith” was so weak that when God said yes, they didn’t believe it.5

When the first response to an answered prayer is shock and amazement, the people who offered that prayer certainly don’t fit the standard definition of having faith. Yet God answered anyway because their prayers fit his definition of faith. Their simple act of praying was an act of faith—they trusted God enough to do what he commanded, even though they were certain it wouldn’t work.

To better understand what biblical faith is and how it works, let’s take a look at the most famous faith passage in the Bible: Hebrews 11. Often called God’s Hall of Fame, it offers a lengthy list of examples, each one showing what God-pleasing faith looks like and what it produced.

The writer of Hebrews starts with Adam’s son Abel, then moves on to Enoch, Noah, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, and Moses, laying out a series of vignettes that describe their steps of faith and the great victories that followed.

Then, almost as if he is running out of steam (or his audience is running out of attention), the writer adds twelve more examples. But this time he offers only a name or a cryptic reference to the great victories their faith accomplished.

It’s an inspiring list. At first glance it seems to support the popular notion that faith rightly applied can conquer anything. It tells of kingdoms won, lions muzzled, flames quenched, weaknesses turned to strength, enemies routed, the dead raised. All in all, a pretty impressive résumé.

But the writer doesn’t stop there. He goes on.

But I warn you. What he said might mess with your head. It certainly messed with mine. After reciting a litany of victories, he suddenly switches gears and changes direction. Now he speaks of people whose faith led them down a different path—folks who were tortured, jeered, flogged, imprisoned, stoned, sawed in two, and put to death by the sword. He ends with a reminder that still others were rewarded with financial destitution, persecution, and mistreatment.

Then he writes these words: “These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised.”6 In other words, these weren’t the faith rejects, the losers, the ones who couldn’t get it right. These were men and women whose faith was applauded by God. Yet their faith didn’t fix anything.

In some cases it made matters worse.

Whoa!

I guarantee you that no one taught my kids this side of faith in Sunday school. Imagine if they did. “Okay, children, today we’re going to learn how trusting and obeying God might get you torn in two, thrown into jail, hated by your friends, and force you to drive an old beater the rest of your life.”

That would thin the herd.

It would certainly rile a few parents.

But it’s essentially what the Bible says that faith (at least the kind of faith that God commends) might do. It may lead us to victory. It may lead us to prison. Which it will be is his call—not ours.


Why Bother?


That raises an important question. If faith is primarily about trusting God enough to do what he says, and yet it won’t fix everything and sometimes will make matters worse, why bother?

One reason stands out above all others. It’s what God wants from us. He says so himself: “Without faith it is impossible to please God.”7

Now, it seems to me that if God is really God, and not just some sort of mystical force, cosmic consultant, or favorite uncle in the sky, then knowing what he wants and doing it is a pretty important thing to pay attention to. Few of us would mess with our boss’s stated preferences. What kind of fool messes with God’s?

A thousand years from now, all the things we

try so hard to fix with our positive thinking,

visualization, and drive-out-all-doubt prayers

won’t matter. The only thing that will matter

is our awesome future and our face-to-face

relationship with God.

Another reason to live by faith (even if it can’t fix all the problems we face) is that it does promise to fix our biggest problem and our biggest dilemma. What do we say and do when we stand before a holy and perfect God who knows every one of our secrets and all of our sins?

Honest now—what’s to keep us from becoming toast?

Frankly, nothing.

But that’s where the real fix-it power of biblical faith kicks in. Jesus promised that all who believe in him (remember that includes trusting him enough to actually follow and do what he says) will receive forgiveness and the gift of eternal life.8 A thousand years from now, all the things we try so hard to fix with our positive thinking, visualization, and drive-out-all-doubt prayers won’t matter. They’ll be but a distant memory, if they can be remembered at all. The only thing that will matter is our awesome future and our face-to-face relationship with God.


God’s GPS System


There’s one more benefit to a proper understanding of biblical faith. Biblical faith gives us something that all the positive thinking and visualization in the world can’t provide. It gives us a life map, something we can depend on to always take us exactly where God wants us to go.

Admittedly, it’s not always an easy map to follow. It takes time, experience, and an occasional leap into the dark to master. It can be frustrating—and scary at times. But in the end, for those who are led by it, it’s a trusty guide, guaranteed to always take us where we need to be.

In many ways the adventure of learning to live by biblical faith is a lot like my love/hate relationship with the mapping software on my GPS unit. Let me explain.

I’m a geographical moron. My wife has no idea how I get home after traveling to speak somewhere. She’s always surprised to see me walk through the front door.

My problem is twofold. First, I’m often in two places at once, mentally. I call it multitasking. My family and friends call it something else. But the end result is that I can be completely oblivious to my surroundings. And when that happens, I literally don’t know where I am. I may think I do, but I don’t, mainly because I haven’t been paying attention.

My second problem is an absolute lack of an internal sense of direction. Without the Pacific Ocean and the mountains as bench-marks, I have no idea which direction is north, south, east, or west. That means that along with not knowing where I am, I often don’t know where I’m heading.

Put those two together and you have a recipe for search-and-rescue. But fortunately (or so you would think), I live in a day when GPS is within reach of the common man.

Yet, despite the promise that an affordable GPS unit has to offer, there is one frustrating problem. The pesky voice in my Garmin often tells me to turn the wrong way.

My first response is always a quick flash of annoyance at the company that makes the mapping software. I wonder why they can’t get it right. I know there are lots of streets they have to include, but come on. That’s what I paid for. And I’m not talking about thinking I should turn left when it says to turn right. I’m talking about those times when I know I should turn left.

To make matters worse, as I make the turn that I know I should make, the little lady in the box starts nagging me. In a mildly disgusted tone, she repeats over and over, “Recalculating. Recalculating.”

Faith is not a skill we master. It’s not an

impenetrable shield that protects us from

life’s hardships and trials. It’s not a magic

potion that removes every mess. It’s a map

we follow.

It’s enough to make me reach over to hit the Off button. But before I do, I’m usually struck with a haunting realization. I’ve been certain I was right before—but somehow ended up wrong. And despite the fact that my GPS sometimes seems unaware of a street or two and occasionally takes me on a circuitous route, it’s always found a way to get me where I want to go.

But doggone it, this time I know I’m right. I’m absolutely certain. I don’t care how many times she spouts off, “Recalculating.” She’s wrong.

So, what do I do?

This is, in essence, a crisis of faith. I have a choice to make. Will I place my trust in my own sense of direction, knowing that this time my not-so-trusty GPS has gotten it all wrong? Or will I place my faith in the little box and turn right, despite my certainty that it’s directing me far from where I want to go?

You probably know the answer. Based on my past experiences, I’ve learned to shrug my shoulders and do what the unit says. So I reluctantly make a turn that makes no sense tome. As I do, my pulse quickens and my stomach churns. My mind fills with images of speaking engagements lost and flights missed.

I turn anyway.

And that’s the reason that I always surprise my wife when I walk in the front door. Somehow east magically turns into west and the “wrong” route gets me there anyway.

Go figure.


Once I arrive at my destination, it really doesn’t matter what doubts or concerns I had along the way. As long as I follow the directions or quickly get back on track after a little “recalculating,” I always end up where I need to be.

That’s exactly how biblical faith works. When rightly understood and applied, it doesn’t matter how many doubts we have. It doesn’t even matter if we’re convinced that all is lost. Ultimately all that matters is whether we have enough faith (maybe just a mustard seed’s worth) to follow God’s instructions. Those who do, get where they’re supposed to go. Those who don’t, end up lost somewhere far from home.


Faith is not a skill we master. It’s not an impenetrable shield that protects us from life’s hardships and trials. It’s not a magic potion that removes every mess. It’s a map we follow.

It’s designed to guide us on a path called righteousness. Along the way, it doesn’t promise to fix every flat tire. It won’t reroute us around every traffic jam. It won’t even stop the road rage of the crazy guy we cut off at the merge.

But it will take us exactly where God wants us to go. And isn’t that where we want to be?


CAN FAITH FIX

ANYTHING?

They were stoned; they were sawed in two; they were put

to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins

and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated—the

world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts

and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground.

These were all commended for their faith, yet none

of them received what had been promised. God had

planned something better for us so that only together

with us would they be made perfect.

HEBREWS 11:37–40

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Murder by Family by Kent Whitaker

It is time for a FIRST Wild Card Tour book review! The reason it is called a FIRST Wild Card Tour is that you never know if the book will be fiction, non~fiction, for young, or for old...or for somewhere in between! Enjoy your free peek into the book!

You never know when I might play a wild card on you!



Today's Wild Card author is:




and the book:



Murder by Family: The Incredible True Story of a Son's Treachery and a Father's Forgiveness

Howard Books (May 12, 2009)



ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Kent Whitaker was happily married to Tricia for 27 years, until she and their younger son Kevin were murdered in December, 2003. At that point, Kent retired from the construction business and put his energies into restoring his life and working with his remaining son Bart, who was charged and later given the death penalty for arranging the shootings.

This story has been featured on CBS’s crime program 48 Hours Mystery and on the Oprah Winfrey Show. Taping for ABC’s Primetime and Good Morning America has been completed, with airings scheduled for Spring of 2009. In September, 2008, Howard Books (Simon & Schuster) released his book Murder by Family, which tells this amazing (and ultimately uplifting) story of forgiveness, healing and how God works within tragedy to bring about great good. Murder by Family was recently named to the New York Times Best Seller List.

Through a busy schedule of speaking nationally, Kent shares his story of forgiveness and new beginnings to churches, business groups, conferences, and prisons. He also volunteers for nonprofit organizations in the Sugar Land, Texas, area and for River Pointe Community Church.


Visit the author's website.

Product Details:

List Price: $13.99
Paperback: 224 pages
Publisher: Howard Books (May 12, 2009)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1439164606
ISBN-13: 978-1439164600

Also available in hardcover:

List Price: $22.99
Hardcover: 224 pages
Publisher: Howard Books (September 23, 2008)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1416578137
ISBN-13: 978-1416578130

MY REVIEW:
I think I read this book in about two days. Yes, I really could not put it down. How completely horrific to be shot yourself AND have your wife and son murdered by a member of your own family. The book talks about the events leading up to that horrible night and then the events that transpired which eventually led to the arrest of his other son for the murders.
But--more importantly--the author discusses how he dealt with the situation with a Christian viewpoint and how he was able to forgive.
I found it to be an inspiring read.

AND NOW...THE FIRST CHAPTER:



The First 200 Minutes


I had always heard that your life flashed before your eyes. But that’s not what happened as I lay on the cold concrete that December night, watching the blood from a gunshot wound cover my white shirt. Instead, I found myself praying for my family. There had been four shots, one for each of us.

I told God that if it were my time, I was ready to die, but I prayed that he would spare my wife and two sons. I called to each of them but got no response except for a few quiet, wet coughs from my wife, Tricia. Although I couldn’t see her from where I had fallen, I knew that it was her because when I had first tried to get up, I saw her blond hair splayed out on the threshold of our home’s front door. Though I had never heard that kind of cough before, I instinctively knew it was the sound of a person trying to clear lungs filling with blood. The silence coming from the dark house was horrible. My God, I thought, he’s shot us all.

Life can change in a moment. Just seconds earlier we had been a happy family of four returning from a surprise dinner celebrating our older son Bart’s anticipated college graduation. He had called that afternoon, telling Tricia that he was through with exams and was coming home for the evening. We had enjoyed a great seafood dinner, including a dessert with “Congratulations!” written with chocolate syrup on the plate’s edge. I snapped a few pictures, and then we took the short drive home. How strange that those would be the last photos we would ever have together.

As we got out of the car, our younger son, Kevin, a sophomore in college, led the way to our front door. He stepped inside, with Tricia right behind him. I heard a huge noise, but I didn’t immediately recognize it as a gunshot. A moment of silence, and then Tricia exclaimed, “Oh, no!” as another shot was fired. I still didn’t understand what was happening. I stepped forward and for the first time saw inside the house. The light from the front porch illuminated a ski-masked figure about eight feet away, standing next to the stairs. I couldn’t see Kevin, though he was lying in the shadows next to where the man was standing, or Tricia, who must have been right by my feet. I just stood there wondering which one of Kevin’s goofball friends was playing a joke on us with the paintball gun.

Suddenly I was slammed in the shoulder with enough force to send me spinning back and to my left. Landing face up on the front porch, I still didn’t grasp what was happening. As I tried to get up, I felt a searing pain in my right arm and realized it was badly broken. A fourth shot rang out as comprehension flooded in. We had been shot. We had all been shot. It struck me that I might be dying.

Then my neighbor Cliff was kneeling over me, comforting me. “Don’t worry, buddy! Help is on the way!”

In the distance I heard sirens as Cliff pulled off his T-shirt and pressed it to my wound. I realized then that no one knew where the shooter was and that Cliff might be in danger. I panicked. “Get out of here! He may still be inside!”

Cliff told me to hold on and ran for home. Moments later a squad car pulled up in front of our house, and then another, and a third. I was aware of more sirens, including the deep foghorn of a fire truck, but they were still far away. With heightened senses I heard muffled footfalls as police ran into and around the house, guns drawn and flashlights flicking illumination into the shadows. After only a minute or two someone called out that the house was clear. By then the whole cul-de-sac that faced our home was full of emergency vehicles. It couldn’t have been more than five minutes since the shootings.

People were everywhere. Neighbors were streaming out of their homes while paramedics swarmed. Two men worked on me, cutting away my leather jacket and shirt, trying to stop the bleeding. I repeatedly asked for information on my family, and finally one of the paramedics quietly said, “Sir, please, let us do our job. You’re in good hands, and lots of good folks are with the rest of your family.”

Then, over all the confusion and noise, as they hurried inside the house, I heard one policeman ask another, “What do you want to do about the DOA?”

My heart froze. Dead On Arrival. I knew that at least one of my family members had died. But which one? And why? Were they all dead?

The sound of a helicopter cut through the night, and I saw the landing lights and then the cherry-red body of Life Flight. Three paramedics raced a gurney down the sidewalk, and one of the police officers told me that they were taking Tricia to the hospital. My heart leaped with joy, because that meant she was still alive. Thank God! But then I realized that this also meant that at least one, and by now perhaps both, of my boys were dead. I began to shake all over and knew I was going into shock. I chattered to the paramedics that I was freezing and that they had better get something to cover me. They replied that as soon as Tricia’s Life Flight took off, the second Life Flight would land for me.

What? Life Flight for me? Was I hurt worse than I realized? Did this mean that both boys were already dead, and there was no need for them to be flown to the medical center?

I really didn’t have time to think about it: with a storm of air and sound, the helicopter took off, and moments later a second one landed. I was put on a gurney, covered with warm sheets and a blanket, and stowed in the back. With the high-pitched scream of jet turbines, we took off and began our eight-minute flight to the Houston Medical Center, part of perhaps the finest network of hospitals in the country. If anyone could keep my family alive, the medical staff there could.


Minute 30—Flashback

As we flew, I caught occasional glimpses of freeways and buildings through the copilot’s floor windows. My mind jumped back six months to my only other helicopter ride. The boys and I were in Colorado, on an adventure to celebrate my fifty-fifth birthday. We spent one day mountain biking and another racing along challenging trails on four-wheel ATVs. But my favorite part of the trip was the two days of intense white-water rafting on the Arkansas River as it snaked through the Royal Gorge. While on the river, we saw a sleek red helicopter crest the gorge 1,100 feet above us, roll into a steep dive, and pull up just before hitting the river. It rocketed fifty feet over us, blasting us with downdraft. All six of us guys in the raft went wild.

The next day we took the ride.

It was like a roller coaster without tracks. Incredible! The boys and I enjoyed it so much that we did it again two days later before coming home; it was one of the most wonderful memories of my life. But as I looked out at the lights of the hospital landing pad, remembering that fantastic trip, I felt as though I were watching the home videos of some other person; there was just no connection. I was numb.


Minute 40—In the Trauma Unit

It only took a moment for the trauma team to whisk me inside, where I was surrounded by doctors and nurses - none of whom would tell me anything about my family. The next thing I knew, my mom and dad were there. Someone from the hospital administration arrived, and when I asked her about my wife and sons, she told me not to worry: my son Bart was being transferred by ambulance and would arrive shortly. He would be treated in this same room, just a few feet from me. That told me everything, as I read between the lines. They were only working on two of us.

I turned to my parents. “Mom, I think there’s a good chance that Tricia and Kevin are dead.” Turning to the woman from administration, I asked, “Isn’t that so?” She looked at me for a long moment, nodded her head, and said that it was.

Bart was wheeled into the room a few moments later. I learned that he had rushed into the dark house and, in an apparent scuffle with the shooter, had been shot in the left arm. He was in shock, reacting to the horror of everything. The trauma team scurried around, cleaning wounds and applying temporary casts, since both of us had broken arms. The bullet had entered my right shoulder and traveled through the arm muscle, striking midhumerus and shattering the bone. Bart’s upper left arm was broken where the bullet had hit. Amid the organized chaos, things began to sink in; God was allowing the truth to come a little at a time.

I felt God’s presence and comfort. On one hand I was beginning to absorb how radically things had changed, while on the other I had a calm assurance that I was not alone and that God would knit whatever happened into his plans for good. Scriptures of comfort came to mind. It was as if God gave me a shot of emotional Novocain. Even though I was becoming more aware of the extent of the tragedy, I trusted God.

Before I knew it, I was being wheeled out of the trauma center and into a corridor. As we passed through the big emergency room doors, I was met by forty or fifty friends. I rolled through a canyon of loved ones. Touched by the grief and worry in their eyes, I began to comfort them. I can’t explain it; the words just came out. My response was unexpected and somewhat out of character.

Later that night, after the nurses had gone, I was finally alone with my thoughts. I lay there trying to wrap my mind around it all—and wasn’t doing a very good job. Piece by piece the reality settled onto my soul.


Minute 180—Reality and Choices

My wife, my lover, my best friend, the one who knew and loved me better than any other, to whom I had been true for twenty-eight years, was dead. My son Kevin, with his incredible Christian faith, his crazy, fun-loving personality, and his passion for sports and the outdoors, would never graduate from college, marry, or give us grandchildren. Bart was down the hall suffering a grief and shock that seemed even more intense than what I was feeling. At fifty-five, I would be facing the last third of my life without most of my family.

For years I have told people that faith is not a feeling but a conscious act of the will. You have to choose to trust and believe, especially when circumstances and your feelings are screaming that you can’t trust God . The Bible says that God can take everything and work it for good for those who love him and are called to his service; well, Tricia and Kevin loved him, and so did I. We were all called to his service, but how could these murders possibly be worked for good? I could imagine no such scenario. And if that verse of the Bible was untrustworthy, what other verses might not apply when I needed them? I might as well throw it all away.

So, here I was, in the middle of a horrific situation in which I had to choose either to go with my feelings and slip into bitterness and despair or to follow my own advice and stand on God’s promises even when they don’t make sense. I wrestled with this for a long time, because I knew that I could go either way and that the consequences of the choice were serious.

Finally, I made the decision to stand on the promises of God. It was one of the most important decisions I've ever made.

When I resolved to trust God, I felt a peace come over me that had nothing to do with the morphine drip. The next thought popped unexpectedly into my mind: What about the shooter?

I realized that God was offering me the ability to forgive, if I wanted to take advantage of it. Did I really want to forgive this guy? I know the Bible says we are to forgive those who hurt us. I know God tells us that vengeance is his, if he chooses dispense it. I have even heard secular health professionals say that forgiveness is the most important thing people can do to heal themselves. But did I really want to forgive, even if God was offering a supernatural ability to do so?

In an instant the answer sprang full-grown into my mind. My heart told me that I wanted whoever was responsible to come to Christ and repent of this awful act. At that moment I felt myself completely forgiving him. This forgiveness astounded me, because earlier I had experienced feelings of incredible sadness and intense anger and the desire to kill the person responsible with my own hands. Little did I realize just how important my decision to forgive would be in the coming months.

I have had a hundred people tell me that they think I’m nuts—that I should hate the shooter and cry out for vengeance. Perhaps I am crazy, but I believe that in those early moments God worked supernaturally, allowing me to forgive completely and immediately, because he had plans for me, and those plans required that I have the forgiveness problem settled once and for all.


For the next two days, as Bart and I waited in our rooms for surgery, we had a nearly unprecedented number of visitors. People were always lined up in the halls waiting to see us; they came and went day and night. In fact, the crowding was so severe that the hospital converted a double room on our floor into a hospitality suite stocked with fruit baskets, cookies, coffee, soft drinks, sofas, and chairs. The hospital showed a lot of class, but I think crowd control was also an important factor.

The next day I had my first visit from Detective Marshal Slot and his partner Billy Baugh from the Sugar Land Police Department. They questioned me extensively about what had happened, and I cooperated, telling them I would do everything I could to help them find out who was responsible for this murderous attack.

The detectives returned a day later to tell me they had learned that Bart was not about to graduate from college after all. In fact, he was not even enrolled in school. I was shocked at the news and horrified at the realization that, if this were true, this knowledge coupled with some mistakes Bart had made years earlier might distract the police from searching for the real killer and lead them to look at Bart as a possible suspect. Marshal told me that they were looking at every possibility, which confirmed my fears.

After they left I fumbled my way into a wheelchair and rolled down to Bart’s room, where I found him asleep, as he seemed to be whenever I came to visit. It was as if he had crawled into a hole, trying to escape this nightmare. I asked his girlfriend (who had camped out at the hospital since the first morning) for a few minutes alone with my son.

“Bart, what were you thinking? You weren’t even in school? How could you lie to us about graduation?”

Bart seemed to forcibly pull himself out of some private hell as he sat up in his bed. The curtains were closed, and the room was dark. Gloom pervaded the atmosphere, with those areas just outside the edge of my vision in deepest shadow. At the time the thought did little more than register in my subconscious, but I would later recall this oppressive darkness and do much thinking about it. For now, my thoughts were focused on Bart. A momentary flicker of strange emotions danced in his eyes; he seemed to careen between grief, shame, regret, and fear.

“Dad, I’m so sorry! I didn’t want to tell you because I knew how much you and Mom were looking forward to my graduation. I just figured I could work it out and take the classes next semester, and nobody would know.”

“Nobody would know!” I was furious. “How would we not know? How would they let you graduate? How did you get into this mess in the first place?”

“Things were crazy at work all summer. Some guys quit, everybody was working long hours, and with school starting, I just didn’t have enough time. I’m so sorry! I decided to help at work and make up school in the spring.”

“Do you have any idea what you’ve done? Thanks to this ‘little’ lie about graduation, the police think you’re a suspect! In fact, right now you seem to be their only suspect. You weren’t in school, you told everyone you were graduating, and they think you arranged to have us killed to cover it up. Can you see how stupid that was? Your lie has done the impossible—it has made Tricia and Kevin’s deaths even worse because now the police think you were involved! Do you have any idea how bad this is?”

Years ago, on a bike ride, I saw a hawk fly right over me, so close I could almost touch it. Clutched within its talons was a field mouse, still alive. I saw the bird swoop up to its nest, bringing breakfast to her young; it would be impossible to forget the look of resignation and terror in the mouse’s eyes as he passed over me. For a moment I saw the same look in Bart’s eyes, but it was gone almost instantly, replaced with resolve.

“Dad, that’s nuts! I didn’t have anything to do with the shootings! I’m sorry about the lie, it just happened. I didn’t mean to lie to you and Mom—I was just afraid of what you would say, and I didn’t want to disappoint you. This will be okay.”

“I don’t know. I’m so mad now, I could spit! I’ve told you before: you cannot ever allow yourself to start lying again! Look at the consequences of this one! If you hadn’t told the lie about graduation, they would be looking elsewhere and might find the real killer before the trail gets cold. Now they’re wasting time on you, and who knows how long they’ll keep at it!”

After a while I calmed down, and I told him I loved him and that the police would soon realize nothing tied him to the shootings. I went back to my room, still angry, disappointed, and depressed. What would happen next?

As the days passed, two things happened: First, the investigation centered more and more on Bart as the mastermind of a plot to kill the rest of the family, assuming that his motives were greed and to cover up for failures at school. Second, I came to realize that perhaps my life had been spared for a reason. God must have something important for me to do, because I could see no logical explanation for my still being alive. The bullet hit me well away from my right lung, and nearly six inches from my heart. The gunman couldn’t have been that bad a shot. Not at that close range.

It occurred to me that perhaps my purpose was to be God’s agent of guidance and instruction for Bart. If he was innocent, I would be the anchor he relied on as he weathered the storms of suspicion; I wouldn’t let him go through that horror alone. If he was guilty, I would be in a unique position to model God’s unconditional forgiveness and love. I might be the person God would use to soften Bart’s heart. And since I already had forgiven whoever was responsible, if Bart was guilty, he would be covered in a pure forgiveness, granted before I ever thought it might apply to my son. Either way, until I knew more, I would be nonjudgmental and supportive. While I couldn’t gloss over anything or minimize the consequences of any wrongs Bart might have committed, I still needed to show him that God forgives and that there is always hope.

Maybe I’m crazy. But I took comfort in knowing that I was doing what God wanted me to do. I like reading that line in the Bible about the wisdom of God being foolishness to man. Maybe a nut was exactly whom God intended to use.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Jam Packed Weekend!

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I had one busy weekend!

First off, I had a lovely time at my book signing on Saturday. Sherlock's Books and Cafe was totally supportive and kind to invite me to their store, and I just want to thank them for being so cool.
So THANK YOU! :)

Here's Susan (the owner) behind the coffee bar.

More of the cafe. (Cool wall painting, huh?)


Me. Surrounded by all my junk and trying to look authorish (is that a word?) in my nerdy glasses.
Then as soon as I got home, I had to whip up some spinach-Parmesan orzo and take it to a BBQ.
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Then Sunday (after Sunday school), the hubby and I went to Atlantic City for the annual Stainton Society Brunch. The Stainton Society is a fundraising organization and is huge in supporting our local hospital expansion and making it as superior as it is today.
Last year, the speaker was Robin Roberts and this year it was none other than...
Former First Lady Laura Bush!


Cool, huh? We were two of 800 people there. Mrs. Bush was so sweet and just a totally lovely and gracious woman. She shared some moments during her husband's presidency and also talked about how 911 changed her interest to human--and especially women's-- rights in Afghanistan and Myanmar. It was a good time. And a little scary. (TONS of secret service) Eeep.
When I got home and had to take a little nap. I was wiped from all the excitement. :)
What did you do this weekend?

Friday, May 1, 2009

News and...News?

MENTAL STATUS: "Happy". The birds are singing, the dieting is now tolerable, and I've begun my next chapter. Life is good.


Sorry I couldn't come up with a snappier title. But I do have news and news to share.

Which do you want first?

Wait--don't answer that! I'll give you the news first. LOL!


First bit of news: I will be doing a book signing at Sherlock's Books and Cafe in Galloway, New Jersey tomorrow from 2pm to 4pm.


If you are in the area, stop by and say hello!


Second bit of news: Did you know that Mattel has introduced the new Totally Stylin Tattoo Barbie? Oh yes.






I have to admit the little pink butterfly on the arm looked harmless enough. Then I saw the huge "Ken" one.


Eeww...


Would you want your little girl playing with tattoo Barbie?