Wednesday, September 5, 2007

A Sad kind of Happy

MENTAL STATUS: "A bit of an emotional mess". Little sweet innocent daughter is starting her first day of Kindergarten tomorrow. As a result I'm suffering from HIGH anxiety. (She's perfectly fine)

I'm all tight in the chestal area. My only child is starting full day Kindergarten tomorrow.


I know I should be happy, after all, my daughter is ecstatic about going. But I can't help but be sad. I'LL MISS HER!! I know. I'm such a sap, but she's been home with me all these years. I know I'll be able to have so much freedom, be able to write more, maybe--MAYBE--get a part-time job, etc.. But I'm sad anyway.

She hit me while I was down this weekend, too. She wanted the training wheels removed from her bike. She's not riding it like that yet, but just the fact that she asked for the wheels to be removed was a shock to the system.

Hubby is taking off work to help me get through the morning. I hope I don't embarrass myself in front of her teacher and start blubbering.

But I'm going to call her teacher today to prepare her.


Stephanie said...

Oh, Jennifer! Bless your heart! I can sympathize now that I have kids...but you know there's an alternative! You could homeschool! ;o) I plan to do that so I hope I never have to deal with what you're going through! Of course the first official day of school is the first day of school no matter where they are!

Kristen Painter said...

Wow. I don't have kids, so I can't really imagine what this is like. However, I always thought if I did have kids, I'd be thrilled to get them out of the house.

You see why I don't have any?

Patricia W. said...

Bless you!

Try not to fall apart at the school if your daughter doesn't. No first day embarrassment.

I remember tears welling up in my eyes. And I'm getting ready for round 2, next fall, already. I spent the morning checking out the kindergarten programs so I'm ready when the enrollment period begins.

Marianne Arkins said...

Hang in there... a couple years ago, I dropped off a neighbor's daughter for her first day in kindergarten and balled like a baby and it wasn't even my child!!

I homeschool my DD, and have for five years now. I love homeschooling... for a hundred reasons I won't go into, but one really great one is that I don't have to say goodbye to my DD every morning.

I hope your day went ok.

Chelle Sandell said...

Oh sweetie, once the day comes and goes it gets so much easier. I thought I was more than ready to have more mommy time. I'm not gonna lie...I had to hurry and leave cause I started crying and bawled all the way home. It's hard knowing he's already school age. But it was hubby's fault. He was upset that he missed the first day. I tried not to make a big deal about it except to Cayd so he would be excited. Today he is sick and cried when he couldn't go to school! I did too cause it's been kinda nice having time for myself finally. Problem #2 is my oldest heads off to high school next year...and my BFF just became a grandma!!!!!!! Now thats scary!!!!